“The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart.”
– Saint Jerome
I am also a diabetic with high blood pressure and that catchall affliction *Metabolic Syndrome* and I’ve been overweight pretty much all my adult life (and the greater part of my childhood). At my heaviest I weighed in at over 350 lbs. I am currently hovering around 300.
It’s definitely time to switch gears.
Following my doctors’ advice (I’ve had several of them – all pushing the same pills) my condition(s) only grew worse, and I just got fed up with paying good money for something that was obviously only making me sicker. So, I finally stopped listening to them altogether – went off my meds – and started researching the beast on my own.
I got my first glimpse of the paleo lifestyle via Art DeVany’s blog back when it was still a public website. But the whole caveman thing just seemed way too faddish for me. Still, some of the things he said made sense, and it even jibed with the only diet I’d ever been on that even came close to reversing my blood sugar trend – The South Beach Diet.
So I ultimately followed the trail a little further.
I got snippets from other folks in the field, but ultimately I never really encountered anything resembling a cohesive whole, something that brought it all together in a dynamic way. You know. Until I did.
Enter Mark’s Daily Apple.
Mark Sisson did for me what none of the others had managed. He brought the science down to conversation level without dumbing it down and presented it in a friendly, progressive kind of way that drew me in and kept me coming back. All in a rush – I got it.
If only I could say I got with it all in a rush as well.
It’s been two years since I discovered MDA and the Primal Blueprint. And once in the midst of all that I actually gave primal a go. And it was a HUGE success for me. My blood sugar started coming down, some of the weight fell off, I actually had energy, actually felt like exercising (an unheard of state of being for me). It was awesome.
And then I just . . . kinda wandered away from it. Went back to my old comfort foods, my sedentary life, and began drowning again in that crappy sluggishness that comes with uncontrolled type 2 diabetes. Because PB was certainly fixing my body, my energy, even did wonders for my mental state and emotional health IMO – but that deep-seated sh*t I’ve dragging around since childhood? That was a monster I had not yet bothered to face down.
It wasn’t until I woke up in the middle of the night to my wife sobbing quietly next to me that I faced what I’d done to myself – and to her. She was crying because she was sure she was going to lose me. Every day she watched me die a little more as she quietly sank into the helpless realization that she was probably not ever going to get to grow old with me.
And it was in that moment that I changed everything.
Some people view change as a process – it doesn’t just happen all at once – and I’ll acknowledge that there is some validity to that viewpoint, but you can’t really change at all until you’ve made the decision to change; that concrete moment where you come to a complete stop and deliberately alter your course.
My first time going primal I was trying something new to *see what would happen* – This time out I am determined to change no matter what happens.
If primal doesn’t work, I’ll find another way; but so long as it is working – like it worked before – I am determined to stick with it.
Which brings me to this blog.
I don’t pretend to be an expert. In fact, I even have this neato disclaimer page that expressly states that I am indeed NOT an expert of any kind. But then, I’m not really here to teach. I’m here to explore and to share the results of that exploration as I go. So yeah, wish me luck, and stop by now and again to enjoy the show.
Please don’t bite the clowns. And be sure to tip your Macadamia vendors.
(AKA – Stuff you don’t really need to know about me but might be amused to read anyway).